steamboat @equine park

was celebrate something with my friend...
at a steamboat restaurant

no.11 table(^.^)

was bbq-ing

fire on!

raw food for steamboat




meat


yeah...it's cooked...nomnom...


there are some ready food too...






hehe....butter in cute packing...



what's this? answer:it's kinda fish ball...
for me,taste not good.
somehow,,,i don't like fishball also...LOL


sauces...i think there have 6-7 sauces they provided.


ice-cream after meal...nomnom...
green:honey dew
brown:vanilla + coffee
yellow:corn



actually i wanna capture the design of their light...
but i can't capture it,because light is too bright.
#phailed to capture.


rules must follow!!!
not to waste food!!it's not good!!


till here then.
see ya'll...thank you for reading...
love you guys!!!&hearts

dont forget to follow me @twitter ya...
thanks a lot!!!

我的泪

今天 心情不好
因由都是从家庭而起
不喜欢偏心 讨厌不公正
天秤座公正第一
最不喜欢突然被臭骂一顿
把开心都给淋掉了
开心走了 伤心就来

事实上 已经比别人幸福了
但是在幸福群里 应该是最不幸福的一个
世界里 也许还有遭遇更糟的
都清楚知道
没有办法忍受 可是始终还是要忍受
把不服气都统统吞掉

伤心难过一整天
就会闭关在房里 面壁思过
戴上耳机 启动音乐
一到一百首 都是抒情歌
在催泪
脑海都会反反复复想些不愉快的片段
眼泪就会接着流下
此时此刻 除了流泪还能做什么
不想伤害灵魂之窗 就会停止
告诉自己 不许哭
对我而言 哭 是用来发泄的一种管道
哭过以后 就好多了
就会爽快 心头就会不见掉一大半大石

这很正常 难过了 脑袋就会自动提示
哭 流泪
把难过 不愉快 统统都给洗掉 冲走
眼泪充满了眼眶 视线模糊了
眨一眨眼 泪就洗脸
 家人的指责 总是换来泪水
真的不知道为什么 很自然
很想撑着 坚持着 最后总是不行 总是失败
为什么

原来 原来 真的很脆弱
比想象中还要脆弱
无药可救 要不得
到底要怎么样才能坚强起来呢

不是没有离开过
一走就是三个月
爸爸连载到目的地都不愿意
就看看是到什么样一个地方
三个月里会怎样 在哪里过生活都不行吗
一直想要把我撇下
顿时 心里头涌上一阵涟漪
知道油费很贵
一生人只有那么一次
无话可说 也没想太多
连告别也只不过一句再见
可见得大家的感情 真的薄过一张纸
这也认了 为什么
因为婴儿时代 照顾我的并不是他们 是奶奶
所以当奶奶走的那一天
起初没什么感伤 因为想着人 总是会有离开的一天
可是当眼睁睁看着棺材进火化场的那一刻
崩溃了 靠着那幅墙失声痛哭 心里在呐喊着 奶奶不要走不要离开
×打字的此刻 也在流泪×
因为当妈妈要打骂的时候都是奶奶在护着

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赫然发现
原来 喜欢自虐
很喜欢痛的感觉
会故意把自己弄伤
有人发现了会问 哇你干什么
总会回答 没什么啦 不小心撞到,,,,,哇 怎么那么不小心
这里黑一块 那里青一块的
很过瘾 而且越多越好
这是什么征兆呢

在面书里 阅过了不少文章
都觉得 还蛮符合的
所以也不否认了

星座物语都说
是认命的一群
果然
没办法埋怨
埋怨了又能怎样
会改变吗 并不会
日子还是一样要过
还是要活下去

有人说:笑也一天哭也一天
为什么不开开心心过一天呢
说倒容易 戏剧嘛 何尝不是呢
很想 谁不想呢
哭着过 很好吗
眼睛肿肿的 很好吗
有时候真的没办法
试问 谁没哭过
哭真的能发泄情绪
把压抑都哭出来 会快乐很多

会宁愿 离开
一个人生活
上班吃饭睡觉
实说 比较喜欢现在的生活
没有人管着
做什么 任我喜欢
做该做的 就好了
最讨厌唠叨了
很厌烦 会不爽
会耍脾气 东西都被弄坏

家家有本难念的经
你懂你的 你不懂我的
就算懂 也不完全
别人读不懂我的难过 我的痛苦

没有人 让我诉苦
找遍了茫茫人海 依然只有自己
友谊难以寻找
知心的 你在哪里
等你等得好辛苦
现身好吗 让我看见你 让我认识你
最坚持的 还是 需要这样一个友情

Abbreviations

                                                          YES...!!!
nowadays,,,,,people all around the world are using acronyms due to lazy to type so many words especially teenagers...
There are many such internet slang words in use, some are more widely understood than others, and new ones are evolving all the time.
I had google the word LMAO....i have no any idea what does this mean.So i decided to find it out meanwhile i had nothing to do inside office,and am accidentally found this website,which solved my doubt.click here to have a look if you interest.
On this site you will find a list of slang terms, acronyms and abbreviations as used in websites, ICQ chat rooms, blogs, and last but not least >>>SMS.

I had copy tons of words to my note and even print it out because it's damn too many...and i think it might used in the future.I won't deny that i'm the one who lazy too....wuuuahahahaha.

                                                             

                                                              

bb,bb,bb,b-y-e b-y-e.....
won't forget to use acronyms too....teehee*evil grin*
so go to search it when you not understand and no idea what the word mean while you reading my blog because i might use them....=)

lastly,kindly follow me at @ twitter ya,,,thanks a lot!!!

YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYE / ACUVUE LENS

Went to Jusco to watch movie.<<那些年我们一起追过的女孩>>
Damn nice movie,i saw many good comment on facebook about this movie.So,decided
to have a watch at it with my bestie.Wonder why is it need above 18.Realized after watched it.LMAO.&HEARTS;
Damn funny.It made me rewind back about my secondary school life.ya,we're all like that when we're teen.Isn't true,teenagers?The worst thing i did was cutting class!!TSK!!
Below are those stills that i copy from google.Will re-watch it!

this occasion when ke-teng been punished.

ambiguous sometimes is better than together

this will be the best time ever when bunch gather and chit-chat

after that,went to FOCUS POINT to got my free trial lens from ACUVUE!!
it's a soft lens...comfortable all day long is the best function.
of course it's transparent.

                                 

                                      

Staff gave me a book that is user guide.

went to hypermarket to buy some staff that is............................................

I_C__E___C.R.E.A.M!!!

honestly,i haven't try the fruit salad flavour yet....
i bought it because they're having promotion....2 for RM18.90.

bye,see ya'll in the next post!!=)

                                                          
                                                                 

BORING BUT LIKEY LIFE

Found a new job at past few weeks ago.For me,is a quite relaxing job,but yeah,it's too boring for a period.
The first thing i would did every time once i went in office was logging into my boss's email.Meanwhile,i would also point at 'firefox' icon to open it,and what?and click in twitter.com,and also MSN.
Other than that,i would also like to look at other's blogger's blog.... I like to scan and read blog.It's quite interest reading other's blog to know what are there doing every single day.Sometimes,i'm envy at people who hang out often,although it's just chillaxing with friend in cafe.I like it doh!but unfortunately,my friend didn't.They'll just go every saturday if they have the mood to,or will just happen once in a blue moon.What a sigh.
But I'm happy that they're such a good friend...we're such a insane bunch...hahaha...of course there must have unhappy part,that's when we have quarrel.

Oops...kay...back to topic...there's nothing much to say also...LOL.
Work just because wanna earn money to spend...human can't live w/o money.What a sigh.But money can't buy HEALTH,HAPPINESS,RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN FAMILY.
Beside busying with your work,don't forget to spent some precious time with your loves one too.

everyday facing these fellow

am mature enough

was chat with my cousin just now.yes...my cousin was right.
[you're mature enough to think that what you should and shouldn't do]
[you're mature enough to do and think what you should do]
yes~!CHEISEY,you're mature enough!!!!
stupid!
mature enough to do anything and think anything what you suppose to do and think.
but,buttt why??W.H.Y?
you're a twenty-year-old girl.
an age for a human to mature enough,an age for a human to think his/her future,an age for a human to think but not just rely on your parent!
anything,yes!anything you should done by yourself.
think some way to solve it whenever there's problem,but not just only knew [mom] here and [mom] there.
yes,thank to my cousin for what he talk to me!and it woke me up seriously.
everyday just knew how to eat,sleep,play.
nowadays,you can't rely on your parent anymore.
yes!just because of you are really mature enough to done all things by yourself!
think!think carefully for your future!plan carefully for your future!
earn money by yourself to pay for your parent to consume but not to think to spend your parent's money!
they already spend enough for you on this past twenty years..now your turn to let them spend yours...
now only i realize that i'm loser...i had completely lose this war....
why?why is life so inexorable?
what i can say now is i wanna bang wall to suicide...
where's my brave?is it suicide can solve any difficulty?stupid cheisey!fml
use your brawn to solve it but not choose the most stupid way to solve all the thing and difficulty that you need to face!!
i just knew what?i just knew it's hard to survive if you had nothing especially your brave and your brawn!!
lastly,CHEISEY,GO!GO TO CHASE YOUR MONEY but not just sit at home without doing anything!
again,DON'T rely on your parent anymore!!fml
i just felt so hard to survive and am grieved enough!!

有一个人

有一个人 你以为他是你的永远

但是他却告诉你 你只是他的过客

有一个人 你总说要放下他

却总是忍不住又拿回来回味

有一个人 他不会主动和你聊天 但你会忍不住想和他聊天

有一个人 你一上线就会去看他在不在.

在 又不敢打扰他.

N.E.W

A NEW DEAREST COME TO ME AND WILL ACCOMPANY ALL THE WAY FOR ME




that is.....---->>lappie!!


<3 it soooooo much....


25/10/2011

19102011

feel like wanna blogging but don't know what to blog,what to write.
recently listen at those depressed and sad song,i rewind many memories that made me unhappy.
familyyy..friendddd....what i had done went wrong....felt sad...
horoscope shown that Libra is such a friendly people,good in socialite...
but,butttt am i?truly,I'm not.
I'm afraid when I'm facing public.
I'm afraid when I'm in a strange places
I'm highly dependent person.

I'm always pessimistic whenever i encounter difficulties.
I'm always envy others daughter has a happiness family,their parent so love them.
what about me?what about mine?are they really love me?are they love me with a different way,different way with others?
i just hope that my parent can love me,treat me just like how they love,treat brother.in the same way....
i just hope that i have a bunch of friends even one beside me whenever i need them...

I'm used to cry in blanket in late night when I'm feeling so sad and wanna wreak...and will found out there's a pair of monster eyes on ma face.
I'm used to be trance when there's something afflicted and grieved me.
my life had just so many WHY? WHY? and why?
i hope i can being contentment...I'm happiness actually compare with others,those who don't have rice to fill in their tummy when hungry.those who don't have drinks when they're thirsty.
cheisie,u're now can fill up your tummy with lotsa yummy food when u're hungry,u can drink tasty beverage when u're feeling thirsty.
what you want some more?what u still grumbling for?
Lollll.am scolding myself....=.=!!


i hope,
i hope,
i hope i can do so...
please...
THANK GOD!! :D

15102011

什么?
连上帝先生都不帮我吗?
一时崩溃到不知如何是好
本小姐
真的 真的很喜欢音乐啦
娘子 我真的 真的不是纯粹喜欢
我想要 很多 很多
我想要学唱歌 学跳舞 学钢琴
我告知你
娘子，要学跳舞
你回话:学什么学?有用吗?
哇塞...崩溃惨了 想撞墙..
那我梦想耶 梦想
不是随口说说的
本人想了很久很久

甚至每有学校介绍
眼睛就只有 【音乐】两个字
其他，其他的 都看不见啦
娘子 你怎么可以这么扫兴
竟然泼我冷水
把我丢在冷冻现场就这样不了了之

音乐!!音乐!!!就你啦
你是我的梦想
可偏偏连上帝都不帮我啦
全部要我自己一手创
什么 什么 都要【基础】
对!!就是【基础】!!!

哇塞...此刻有多么地向撞墙
撞墙给我失忆好了
基础??
我连一个shit 都没有
i just have talent doh!!!
others than that?i dont have,seriously....

i just want to like others artists,
在舞台上表演给大家看  娱乐大家
这就是我的心愿

偏偏 偏偏谁也都不要帮我
只有我自己能帮自己
CHEISEY,
gambateh!!!
u can do it!!!
GO~

deeper

想把你挡掉，当掉

   不想看见

只有厌烦，没有别的

在我重新调整一切以前，停止

停止一切

难道还不够狠吗

要赶尽杀绝才甘愿吗

并不想  不要逼人太盛

不要我的周围有任何你的影子

憎恨?

到了这个地步吗

并不想

因为在这个世界上并没有人欠我

the days without you i live happier







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birthday celebration yoy!

yay!
good morning,world.lol
what a weird~
ready by 10.30am.
four sista include me is heading to karaoke....
oh yeah!had been long time didn't sang with my sista....

yes!room no.42

finished our karaoke session was about 3pm,headed to shopping centre....
NICHII oh nichii~\(n_n)/~
3 of them walked out with one plastic bag each,but i didn't...=(
why?no why...lol.nothing to buy....
after that,went to SASA.
they bought nail polish and i bought a eyeliner.
gluk....gluk....('_")oops....stomach screamed....wuahahahaha....
so we bought SHILIN famous XXL chicken chop!!!
awwh~yummy!!!
peeps,had ya'll tried before?if hv'nt,must have a try...!!
oops...forgot to took the pitcha of the chop....hahas.
after dinner,we back home...
jenny:oh?no need buy a cake this time for celebration?
peggy:ya loh~then where to buy?
jenny:the cake house nearby my house loh~
peggy:alright!
after that,headed to ma house to celebrate caz there's no any nice place for us to sing happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you~lol.

happy birthday to me=)

sheny,jenny&peggy

oh yea,ma present.
peggy done it by herself.is it nice?

     

birthday ya coming soon...

3rd oct 2011 11.59pm
am counting down to my BIG day.....
am curious who are the first one who message me,
and how many will message me...
but after 12.00am,and...and...is 4th oct,
my eyes closed.....wuaaahahahaha....



once i opened my eyes,
there's a envelope sign appear on my phone screen,
and a number '4' beside it...
well,not surprisingly....caz every year almost these amount of fellow will message me.
but,but this year although with the same amount but the people are not the same.
1st: 'she'
2nd: a camp's friend named AUNI(am surprise when i saw her name,unexpectedly!!)
3rd:peggy,my sista...\(^o^)/

thanks~thankyou for ya'll wishes.....

but what the sad case is:my mom is not with me....T.T

but still then,im awaiting this coming SATURDAY.....
am curious at what will them present me....woohoo....
hope it won't let me disappointed yea...LOL.

i know u get hurt

well,as my personality,i HATE manacle.
i need to reply all your messages when u sent.
after a half day i didn't do that,u'll worry.
okay,i can understanding.and u scolded me.
okay,fine.never mind.
every second,every minute also u message me, non-stop.
because of u,my phone battery need to charge 2 times in 1 day!
wtf
finally,i can't bear it.and i sent a message to her about every inches thing i can't bear anymore!
u stop sending those concern message at last!
my mouth started to getting up n upper.\(^o^)/
as conclusion what,i knew i hurt u deeply.sorry

i deleted all your messages...i don't know why!
i don't like to see any inches of your things~
so once u sent me,after read,directly will click the [rubbish bin] pitcha!!

i don't know whether am should happy?
i don't know whether should i felt lucky?
GOD...what the aim u let me met her????
what to know?what should i knew from this lesson?

hopefully she can disappear in my memory at all!
but i knew myself clearly!won't....
SUCK~!

ARGH~!!!

don't know what gonna say.someone had annoyed me non-stop!
i can't bear it!hope that 'U' can disappear in my life immediately! yes!RIGHT NOW!
ughh~!'U' are too sticky but unluckily u don't felt it.oh my god!
what can i say?no~i can say nothing!sad case!
i said what i wanna said but i shocked what i had read what i received!OH NO~
gonna bang myself!
u had tighten me but u don't know!
u had annoyed me but u don't know!
u're too sticky for me but u don't know!
what can i say is i was REGRET at what i said!
REGRET!TOTALLY REGRET!
ughh~!GOD!sorry for my impulse!forgive me please!
just don't know what still can i do?
but 对别人善良就是对自己残忍
yea!is definitely correct what it meant!
but anyway be cruel is not good.
i ain't cruel but now i need to be cruel to save myself.
sorry to do that!if not i won't be free like before!
SORRY!