truth about morning

Here comes the idea to blog bout this post.

I saw Jane aka chuckei posted this in her fb page.....




about the morning truth....

I was like wtf ... so true.... I bet everybody think that.Erm....maybe not all. For me,I agree to maybe 6 out of 10.

Is that something pop out in your mind now? What's that?

haha. Alright. Let's see!

1)bed is extremely comfortable when I want to wake up compare to at night when I going to bed.
2)snooze every 5mins once alarm rang.

3)roll here roll there on the bed , refuse to get out from bed.

4)brush teeth with my eyes closed.

5)those morning people is effin annoying till I wanna slap them.

6)you wonder why am I so tired when my body had been recharge?

7)falling asleep takes an hour at night

8)There's a huge difference between 7am and 7.05am.

9)when I wake up half an hour earlier , I spent the whole half hour to look at the clock every 5mins.

10)Whenever I feel happy for the next morning event,I ruin it by not being able to sleep the night before.

11)Planned what to do the next day , but then so is the day after.

GRRRRR......

Alright , here's a few truth ..... that happens to me wtf  


So what about yours?

I got it here , some .



everyday woke up with this stupid face.

Bye,

thank you , XX

Hi.

wordy post.

First of all,put a pic to let YOU know that I'm writing all this for you.

YES.I'm writing this post for YOU.

Don't know where to start from...... X_X

I'm happy that i had knew you.This is the fate between us , we knew each other through social network.
YOU are the special one among all those people who send request for me.How special?I knew now your brain is popping up this question.
Alright.All of them ask what's your name?how old are you?where you live?
But , you don't. This is the answer. and This is how's our friendship start. =)

We had been chat for a long time in the social network.And,one day you ask me for my "LINE' account,you wanna add me there.YOU said there more interest to chat. 'interest?''  I asked. ''Yes,there're more emoticon and those character , more cute! '' you answered like this.

Alright. Added. We started to chat , chat and chat.

Sometimes , we chat using those emoticon and those cute LINE cartoon.just can't resist the bunny! It's way too cute!

Yes!! the one!!

Don't you feel that tooo,peeps?

Day by Day.


Then,one day i told you that i love this doll.erhm....bunny.alright.

AWWH~~~!!!!! Bomie is too adorable~~

Ya.The one that Park Bom holding.BECAUSE of her , i love this don't-know-what bunny.

Peeps,do you know what's the name? Anyone?

Alright.Here start the deal. We made a deal.

My exam is around the corner.Gotta do revision.and I had no mood to do so.YOU , you encourage me and ask me to go to.Alright,I obey.

If I got nice result , YOU will get me this ! I'm way too happy after saw your message. *I'm rolling on ma bed loll**

Bla Bla Blahhh....and again.One day back from exam,I told you that I can't get good result for my exam. I expected. Then you said,never mind,as what I promised. I gift you as Christmas present. OH MY~~~~ I told you : I just can't believe!

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The day we hang out , I got it!!




Till one day....

I told you I'm couple.

and you........

































SAY BYE TO ME . I was like wtf you said that.....OK.sorry.


I asked WHY?



your talking ALREADY shown all. Don't you know that?!

The next day....you tell me. Finally. sorta.

OF COURSE. you made me @#$%^&*

oh...oh.....oh i seeeee.....

Fyi , actually I felt it.I mean the feeling. I'm NOT  3yro. I mean the day we hang out and when we chat in LINE. You know , you sent those emoticon with love..........



YES . EXACTLY as what i mentioned just now.

And now what I want to say is :

AHEM~~AHEM~~

I don't have the authority to stop you from continuing to like me. no. I don't have. So don't worry. YOU can still.....
and what i told you that day....he don't allow me to hang out with guys.

but,we can ............. because we're FRIEND. remember that.

but , and still because I have bf , so please , we should have a distance  between us. DON'T stay too close to me. NO. sorry. Remember that before something not happy happen.

Alright. I tell you already.

 I HATE to hurt people,indeed . but ONCE I DID, sorry to say. I knew this is just unbelievable.
and,
I don't want to hurt you,because we're friend,and I want a friend rather than an enemy.

because I'm Libra. I'm kind like that. wtf.
I want to apologize to you IF I made you misunderstand .
sorry. and I hope you understand. THANK YOU.

BYE.as what you wished.

T_____T

A new life

Still happy but freaking tired... no doubt ...

officially a uni student ... yes! student identity again ...

aigooo....

really annoying ... everyday needa worry about , think about , ASSIGNMENT .

no...i hate...i hate study A LOT ..!!

why...? i knew you guys must ask why ...? because of my future ... daddy said : YOU NEED A UNI... for your better future...

@_@

 

Everyday facing this , this and these ... **faint**

what's inside my bag

 

File and jacket are needed. the air-con in my school is FREAKING cool.

cheese is LOVED !!!

I went to secret recipe with my friend when there's a rest time between our lesson , to entertain ourself and spent our time. Sweetness make people happier , isn't ?

 

g o o d b y e .

sorry for the lack update , readers . I'm really busy with my study . haiz . T__T

 

i L♥VE you

星期六的下午,突然间下起倾盆大雨,电台播着个个关于母亲节的东西,而我喜爱的东于哲告诉了媒体他们种种不能说给妈妈听的秘密...

东于哲 - 内心话

其中最让我心痛/感动的 :

''我中三曾經當過推銷員，每天早上9時一直工作到傍晚6時，因為每天都要挨家沿戶推銷產品，所以要消耗很多體力，我因為身上沒有多餘的錢，也不想跟媽媽開口 要錢吃飯，所以都沒有吃早午餐，結果有一次因為太餓又熱，從公司安排的車子一下車就不支暈倒街頭，醒來時人已坐在椅子上，完全不知道自己暈倒的事，這件事 我從來沒有跟媽媽提過。 '' by 小东

''兩年前我們參加公司旅遊團去James Island，結果抵步後剛好退潮，我不甘心，跟小東就一直往海水方向前進，未料腳底踩中海膽，結果中了廿多根刺，當地的救生員用他們傳統的治療法，即是 用檸檬汁往我腳底灑下去，把刺一根根的擠出來，回來KL後，我還去診所把最後一根刺用雷射打出來，其實當時我還有小發燒，但我都靠意識撐過去，沒有告訴大 家，是因為不想掃興，這件事我從來沒有跟媽媽提過。'' by 阿哲

母亲节将近,就在明天...

此刻里的脑海在想,我娘离我好远好远......

想当初小时候,我不知道自己是否有送过我娘一份礼物,我真的不知道也不记得...

直到3年前,那是我第3次出来打工,那时候也是母亲节,父亲节将近,就会有推销员来推销一些可以送礼的东西,是按摩器.我和朋友就觉得产品不会贵,买给父母也不错,于是就买了.

母亲节当天我娘在厨房准备餐点,我起床后不久,就把那礼物送给我娘.我感受到了!我感受到我娘的那份喜悦,话说因为那是我第一次送她礼物.

我还记得第一次出来打工的时候,拿到了我的人生第一份工资,回到家就马上给我娘,她却说:''不用了,你收着吧.自己用.''

现在回想起来,每个妈妈应该也是这样吧?孩子第一次打工,然后会觉得欣慰.我娘!谢谢你!

i teared after i wrote this.wtf

话说每当我看着看着,那些关于爱的文章,感谢的文章,都会有些感触.无可否认的,没有人不爱自己的父母吧,包括我.我爱他们!其实,以前,自懂事以后,都不觉得我是爱他们的,一直以来都觉得他们根本就不爱我，因为他们偏心，就只爱小的，什么好的都给他，家里家务都由我来做，而他却在那里很high地玩他的游戏机.所以我都很讨厌那小的!总是说他还小,等他大了，会吩咐他的。脑袋涌现:他娘的!什么还小?!话说那时候我三年级就开始做了!拜托他现在几岁了?!?!（他初中一了 ）每当在埋怨的时候，爹他都会一笑而过，根本不把话当一回事，当时我气炸了!!!爹他就是这么一个人，不把每件应该看得重要的事看得重要一点，就悠哉悠哉地.可是记得有一次，爹和娘因为我一些事在吵架，我被娘骂哭了，然后爹他就喊：知道为什么你娘的心愿是第一胎是想要女的吗?因为他想有人帮她分担家务!那时候我哭得更厉害，稀里哗啦的，就像此刻的大雨一样，为什么?脑袋涌现:谜底揭开.原来你生我就是要我帮你分担家务?!?! 那是怎么一回事...?

老实说，和家人没有很深厚的感情....就像母亲节不会说母亲节快乐，不会亲手制作一张卡，不会说早安，晚安，不会一家人坐着吃饭，就算有也一面吃一面看电视，很少有聊天，吵架比聊天来得多，他娘的，这叫一家人吗??? 一家人在家里就你做你的我做我的.我们不曾拥抱.就因为感情不够深厚，做起来感觉恶心，也不愿意，更不想。糟糕吧..?可是小的就不同了，他和他们就比较好一点。偶尔都会说晚安。我和小的感情也并没有很好，不止，还更经常吵架，吵得要翻桌。爹他每次就说:你就只有一个姐，你就只有一个弟，为什么就不能好好相处呢?很明显，坏的我在作祟，骨子里就已经不喜欢他了，怎么可能还可以好好相处，放屁!除非我戴面具!天天夜夜都带着虚伪的心在做人!我办不到，抱歉!

之前有看过一些报章，孩子小时候，天天跟着的那个人，天天照顾他的那个人，会跟他们感情比较好，比起亲生父母。这文章点开了我的猜想，我的疑问。或许就是这样，我跟家人感情并不怎么好。因为小时候照顾我的，哄我开心的，打我骂我的，并不是我的爹娘，而是我的奶奶。我跟奶奶感情很好，凡遇到什么事情，第一个就是阿嫲而不是妈妈。而且奶奶也很疼我。处处都保护着我，娘她打我的时候就会说干嘛打她，然后都护着我。还有就是，我这一生人都不会忘记，我小时候爸爸给我的那一记耳光 !还有娘她拿水管 打我的时候!永远，不会。

就在去年的时候，娘她带我去见了一位法师，法师把她手上工作都做完以后，娘和她就坐下来聊天，法师她会看相，她一眼就看出我是一个天下第一大懒虫，是脸相!天生就是懒，再加上是天秤座宝宝，我的天啊!但是我不否认，我的的确确很懒...T__T 再来，她就跟我说我娘她脸相的解说。她说:我娘她一生都在为我们付出(i teared when i heard this)，你有一个好妈妈，什么事都想你们在先，煮好的给你们吃，怕你们健康不好，会去买中药煲来给你们喝 (tears drop) 。不要每次让妈妈生气，要帮妈妈煮饭，做家务。妈妈照顾你们很辛苦了。（i cried till i can't see what's in front me.)  这件事过后几天，娘她出去买饭，当我打开饭盒的时候，我看到了茄子，我心停了一下( 因为那天去找法师的时候，法师有说我要多吃茄子) 。 娘她记在心里。谢谢你，娘 !

有一段时间，娘她到了一间餐厅当洗碗的。每天下午四点就去工作。回想不到那时候本人几岁...爸爸他好像 到外地工作去了。印象中就是娘她每天下午四点出去工作，到了凌晨才回来，每次起床见不到她，连放学回来也见不到她。当时的我们是用纸条沟通的。因为这份工作，娘她的手开始变得不是她的手，脱皮，一碰到肥皂就很痛。手变得不像手。娘她这么辛苦就是因为要养活这个家，一个家不能没有收入。

话说.......

虽然有时会不喜欢他们，会讨厌他们，但是从骨子里，是爱他们的。无论再怎么不喜欢，再怎么讨厌，他们始终是把我养大的爹娘，在我身上付出了多少心血。知道了，了解了。可能他们的心在想的，和我不同，我不了解， 他们有他们爱我的方法。又或许并没有，可是无论多多少少，都会有爱我的心。对吗...?

 此时此刻，雨停了，播放器播着张杰的最接近天堂的地方，眼睛稍微肿了，娘她不在我身边。在写这篇文章的同时，我不知道我流泪流了多少遍。她的节日，她跟同事过。

娘她离开了这么久，终于体会，终于晓得，原来娘她真的为这个家付出了这么这么多，做了这么这么多。娘她去到外地工作，看来也不是一件坏事，至少让我发现到那些我不曾发现到的事。

人，真的，或许，要等到失去后，才懂得珍惜，才懂得感恩。

最后还是要说，我会用接下来的日子，好好爱你。 

 



 

 

我的泪

今天 心情不好
因由都是从家庭而起
不喜欢偏心 讨厌不公正
天秤座公正第一
最不喜欢突然被臭骂一顿
把开心都给淋掉了
开心走了 伤心就来

事实上 已经比别人幸福了
但是在幸福群里 应该是最不幸福的一个
世界里 也许还有遭遇更糟的
都清楚知道
没有办法忍受 可是始终还是要忍受
把不服气都统统吞掉

伤心难过一整天
就会闭关在房里 面壁思过
戴上耳机 启动音乐
一到一百首 都是抒情歌
在催泪
脑海都会反反复复想些不愉快的片段
眼泪就会接着流下
此时此刻 除了流泪还能做什么
不想伤害灵魂之窗 就会停止
告诉自己 不许哭
对我而言 哭 是用来发泄的一种管道
哭过以后 就好多了
就会爽快 心头就会不见掉一大半大石

这很正常 难过了 脑袋就会自动提示
哭 流泪
把难过 不愉快 统统都给洗掉 冲走
眼泪充满了眼眶 视线模糊了
眨一眨眼 泪就洗脸
 家人的指责 总是换来泪水
真的不知道为什么 很自然
很想撑着 坚持着 最后总是不行 总是失败
为什么

原来 原来 真的很脆弱
比想象中还要脆弱
无药可救 要不得
到底要怎么样才能坚强起来呢

不是没有离开过
一走就是三个月
爸爸连载到目的地都不愿意
就看看是到什么样一个地方
三个月里会怎样 在哪里过生活都不行吗
一直想要把我撇下
顿时 心里头涌上一阵涟漪
知道油费很贵
一生人只有那么一次
无话可说 也没想太多
连告别也只不过一句再见
可见得大家的感情 真的薄过一张纸
这也认了 为什么
因为婴儿时代 照顾我的并不是他们 是奶奶
所以当奶奶走的那一天
起初没什么感伤 因为想着人 总是会有离开的一天
可是当眼睁睁看着棺材进火化场的那一刻
崩溃了 靠着那幅墙失声痛哭 心里在呐喊着 奶奶不要走不要离开
×打字的此刻 也在流泪×
因为当妈妈要打骂的时候都是奶奶在护着

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赫然发现
原来 喜欢自虐
很喜欢痛的感觉
会故意把自己弄伤
有人发现了会问 哇你干什么
总会回答 没什么啦 不小心撞到,,,,,哇 怎么那么不小心
这里黑一块 那里青一块的
很过瘾 而且越多越好
这是什么征兆呢

在面书里 阅过了不少文章
都觉得 还蛮符合的
所以也不否认了

星座物语都说
是认命的一群
果然
没办法埋怨
埋怨了又能怎样
会改变吗 并不会
日子还是一样要过
还是要活下去

有人说:笑也一天哭也一天
为什么不开开心心过一天呢
说倒容易 戏剧嘛 何尝不是呢
很想 谁不想呢
哭着过 很好吗
眼睛肿肿的 很好吗
有时候真的没办法
试问 谁没哭过
哭真的能发泄情绪
把压抑都哭出来 会快乐很多

会宁愿 离开
一个人生活
上班吃饭睡觉
实说 比较喜欢现在的生活
没有人管着
做什么 任我喜欢
做该做的 就好了
最讨厌唠叨了
很厌烦 会不爽
会耍脾气 东西都被弄坏

家家有本难念的经
你懂你的 你不懂我的
就算懂 也不完全
别人读不懂我的难过 我的痛苦

没有人 让我诉苦
找遍了茫茫人海 依然只有自己
友谊难以寻找
知心的 你在哪里
等你等得好辛苦
现身好吗 让我看见你 让我认识你
最坚持的 还是 需要这样一个友情

有一个人

有一个人 你以为他是你的永远

但是他却告诉你 你只是他的过客

有一个人 你总说要放下他

却总是忍不住又拿回来回味

有一个人 他不会主动和你聊天 但你会忍不住想和他聊天

有一个人 你一上线就会去看他在不在.

在 又不敢打扰他.

19102011

feel like wanna blogging but don't know what to blog,what to write.
recently listen at those depressed and sad song,i rewind many memories that made me unhappy.
familyyy..friendddd....what i had done went wrong....felt sad...
horoscope shown that Libra is such a friendly people,good in socialite...
but,butttt am i?truly,I'm not.
I'm afraid when I'm facing public.
I'm afraid when I'm in a strange places
I'm highly dependent person.

I'm always pessimistic whenever i encounter difficulties.
I'm always envy others daughter has a happiness family,their parent so love them.
what about me?what about mine?are they really love me?are they love me with a different way,different way with others?
i just hope that my parent can love me,treat me just like how they love,treat brother.in the same way....
i just hope that i have a bunch of friends even one beside me whenever i need them...

I'm used to cry in blanket in late night when I'm feeling so sad and wanna wreak...and will found out there's a pair of monster eyes on ma face.
I'm used to be trance when there's something afflicted and grieved me.
my life had just so many WHY? WHY? and why?
i hope i can being contentment...I'm happiness actually compare with others,those who don't have rice to fill in their tummy when hungry.those who don't have drinks when they're thirsty.
cheisie,u're now can fill up your tummy with lotsa yummy food when u're hungry,u can drink tasty beverage when u're feeling thirsty.
what you want some more?what u still grumbling for?
Lollll.am scolding myself....=.=!!


i hope,
i hope,
i hope i can do so...
please...
THANK GOD!! :D

i know u get hurt

well,as my personality,i HATE manacle.
i need to reply all your messages when u sent.
after a half day i didn't do that,u'll worry.
okay,i can understanding.and u scolded me.
okay,fine.never mind.
every second,every minute also u message me, non-stop.
because of u,my phone battery need to charge 2 times in 1 day!
wtf
finally,i can't bear it.and i sent a message to her about every inches thing i can't bear anymore!
u stop sending those concern message at last!
my mouth started to getting up n upper.\(^o^)/
as conclusion what,i knew i hurt u deeply.sorry

i deleted all your messages...i don't know why!
i don't like to see any inches of your things~
so once u sent me,after read,directly will click the [rubbish bin] pitcha!!

i don't know whether am should happy?
i don't know whether should i felt lucky?
GOD...what the aim u let me met her????
what to know?what should i knew from this lesson?

hopefully she can disappear in my memory at all!
but i knew myself clearly!won't....
SUCK~!

ARGH~!!!

don't know what gonna say.someone had annoyed me non-stop!
i can't bear it!hope that 'U' can disappear in my life immediately! yes!RIGHT NOW!
ughh~!'U' are too sticky but unluckily u don't felt it.oh my god!
what can i say?no~i can say nothing!sad case!
i said what i wanna said but i shocked what i had read what i received!OH NO~
gonna bang myself!
u had tighten me but u don't know!
u had annoyed me but u don't know!
u're too sticky for me but u don't know!
what can i say is i was REGRET at what i said!
REGRET!TOTALLY REGRET!
ughh~!GOD!sorry for my impulse!forgive me please!
just don't know what still can i do?
but 对别人善良就是对自己残忍
yea!is definitely correct what it meant!
but anyway be cruel is not good.
i ain't cruel but now i need to be cruel to save myself.
sorry to do that!if not i won't be free like before!
SORRY!