19102011

feel like wanna blogging but don't know what to blog,what to write.
recently listen at those depressed and sad song,i rewind many memories that made me unhappy.
familyyy..friendddd....what i had done went wrong....felt sad...
horoscope shown that Libra is such a friendly people,good in socialite...
but,butttt am i?truly,I'm not.
I'm afraid when I'm facing public.
I'm afraid when I'm in a strange places
I'm highly dependent person.

I'm always pessimistic whenever i encounter difficulties.
I'm always envy others daughter has a happiness family,their parent so love them.
what about me?what about mine?are they really love me?are they love me with a different way,different way with others?
i just hope that my parent can love me,treat me just like how they love,treat brother.in the same way....
i just hope that i have a bunch of friends even one beside me whenever i need them...

I'm used to cry in blanket in late night when I'm feeling so sad and wanna wreak...and will found out there's a pair of monster eyes on ma face.
I'm used to be trance when there's something afflicted and grieved me.
my life had just so many WHY? WHY? and why?
i hope i can being contentment...I'm happiness actually compare with others,those who don't have rice to fill in their tummy when hungry.those who don't have drinks when they're thirsty.
cheisie,u're now can fill up your tummy with lotsa yummy food when u're hungry,u can drink tasty beverage when u're feeling thirsty.
what you want some more?what u still grumbling for?
Lollll.am scolding myself....=.=!!


i hope,
i hope,
i hope i can do so...
please...
THANK GOD!! :D